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I have the nobel prize performance for band tomorrow in worcester. I'm happy that I get to see a bunch of my friends who I haven't seen in over a month, but I'm NOT excited to venture out into the cold. So far I've managed to avoid the really cold days by staying inside and drinking hot chocolate, but I don't have that option tomorrow. I hope I can find my winter gloves, hat & scarf...
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| I'm not sure why I even keep this thing |
[20 Jan 2007|11:10pm] |
Dev just brought it to my attention that I haven't posted in a while. I really don't have much to say, but I felt the need to write something.
I just got back from England a few days ago. I think I finally adjusted to the time difference. When I first got to England all I did was sleep for 3 days or so, then when I got home I couldn't sleep for 3 days or so. I definitely wish that was the other way around.
Anyway, I was there for 12 days. I had a blast. I saw all the sites like the London Eye, Westminster Abbey, London Bridge, Tower of London, Tower Bridge, and a bunch of other stuff. I posted pics on facebook if you're interested. I also went shopping, and just walk around a lot, went to a rugby match, and drank a bit. I'm sorta sad that I had to come home.
Well, that's the most exciting thing that's happened to me lately. I go back to school next week. I don't want to start classes again, but I def miss my friends at umass so i'm sorta glad that I'm going back.
That's all folks.
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| Finals stink. |
[20 Dec 2006|08:55pm] |
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Apparently loam and top soil are not the same thing. Who knew? More importantly, who cared? I do not want to study for my environmental bio test! :(
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| studying is over rated. |
[18 Dec 2006|11:46pm] |
1. name?:
jennifer
2. Ok, but what do people call you?
jennifer or jenn.
3. Have you ever kissed someone with braces?:
i think i did when i had braces
4. Who is the fourth missed call on your call log?:
ryan g... i still don't know why he called me.
5. If you could change your eye color, what would you change it to?
i wouldnt change them
6. What is the wallpaper on your phone?
martini glasses
7. What do you have handy at your bedside everynight?:
phone
8. What was the last text message you sent?:
to jeremy thanking him for helping me with my vocab
9. What do you want for Christmas?:
a digital camera
10. do you have a tree up yet?
we one here at school, i havent been home since thanksgiving so i dont even know
11. Do any of your friends annoy you?:
they wouldnt really be my friends if they did.
12. Are cell phones allowed in your school?:
yea. it's college.
13. When was the last time you cried from laughing so hard?:
in the dc with steven, tab, chris, and diana. i think it was about the banana.
14.What high school did you go to?
danvers high
15.What college, if applicable?
Widener then UMass!!
16. Who was the last person that made you laugh?
eleni of course
17. What do you like from Subway?:
veggie, no olives & LOTS of southwest sauce
18. Who do you make fun of the most?:
i dont know. maybe dev.
19. What's the longest you've ever talked on the phone?:
probably a couple hours, but in general i hate the phone
20. Do you think you've gotten prettier since jr. high?:
yes, definitely. i was fat.
21. Have you seen your best friend cry?:
it doesnt happen often
22. Who was the last person to leave you a voicemail?:
ummm i dont remember. maybe my mom?
23. have you ever peed outside before?
haha tuba sleep out!
24. Do you dance in the car?
hells yeah. its one of my favorite things to do.
25. What do you think of hunting and fishing?:
not for me. i dont fish cuz i tried once and i got a hook stuck in my hand and my friend tried to pull it out but just made it hurt more. Traumatized....
26. Do you and your best friend(s) act alike?
haha yeah, theres a reason we call ourselves jeleni
27. What is a noise that you cannot stand?
nails on the chalkboard, children singing
28. Does your mom vacuum early in the morning, when you're sleeping?
if she does then i sleep through it
29. Are your parents strict or do they let you do whatever?:
my mom used to be strict, but shes gotten a lot better
30. What age did you get a cell phone?
i dont remember
31. Would you rather sleep at a friends or have them over at your house?
it depends on who has better food and if they have hot siblings/parents
32. Do you watch MTV?:
its a guilty pleasure. i only watch it when im home or in dev's room.
33. Has something happened that you honestly thought you were gonna die?:
yes
Last time you kissed someone?:
saturday night
35. What do you smell like right now?:
probably awfulness.
36. Do you have a hard time admitting you're wrong?
sometimes.
37. Who was the first person you held hands with?
probably mike degeis
38. What shoes did you wear today?
mostly flip flops, but when i actually left my room that one time i put on sneakers.
39. What makes you lose your appetite?:
bad smells, fat people, meat
40. What color is your laundry basket?:
hot pink, what else?
41. Does your mom make you wear a winter coat?:
sometimes she tries, but i dont.
42. Do they contain fur?:
hells no!
43. Do you own any Abercrombie or Hollister polos?:
i stole dev's hollister sweatshirts, but i dont actually own anything from either store
44. Do you think those stores are too expensive?:
for me, yes.
45. How do you like your steak?
i dont.
46. Whose in your house right now?:
i dont know, but eleni and i are in my dorm.
47. Where did you get your last bruise from?:
partying
48. Where did you last go to eat at?:
the pizza buffet place in tennessee... sooo good!
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| xmas survey :) |
[28 Nov 2006|09:56pm] |
1. Hot chocolate or apple cider?
mmm. i like both.
2. Turkey or Ham?
i dont eat meat.
3. Do you get a Fake or Real cut it yourself Christmas tree?
fake for the dorm, real for home.
4. Decorations on the outside of your house?
just some white lights, nothing too drastic
5. Snowball fights or sledding?
sledding. i HATE snowball fights.
6. Do you like hanging around the fireplace?
i dont have one, but if i did i would enjoy it
7. Do you enjoy going downtown shopping?
yes, theres nothing like going shopping at cvs, supremes and goodies...
8. Favorite Christmas song?
Mariah Carey's All I Want for Xmas is You.
10. How do you feel about Christmas movies?
some are all right
11. When is it too early to start listening to Christmas music?
before thanksgiving, definitely
12. Stockings before or after presents?
before
13. Carolers, do you or do you not listen to them?
we dont get carolers, but if we did i'd listen
14. Go to someone else’s house or they come to you?
xmas eve we go to my aunts & xmas day they all come to ours
15. Do you read the Christmas Story the night before Christmas?
no
16. What do you do after presents and dinner?
pass out
17. What is your favorite holiday smell?
food!
18. Ice skating or walking around the mall?
neither
19. Favorite Christmas memory?
going to florida with the band is the only thing i can think of
20. Favorite Part about winter?
snow days & winter break!
21. Ever been kissed under mistletoe?
no :(
22. Does Santa wrap presents or just sit them under the tree?
santa knows how much i love to unwrap stuff so he def wraps them
23. Colored lights on tree/house or white?
white on the house, colored on the tree usually
24. Do you hang mistletoe?
i used to have some in my car that eleni gave me...
25. When do you put your decorations up?
well we still have halloween decorations in my dorm room, but my mom already hung the lights up at home
26. What is your favorite holiday dish (excluding dessert)
lasagna & cranberry sauce mmmm
27. When and how did you learn the truth about Santa?
i used to hang out with the older kids in elementary school & one day i was walking home from school with my friend John & i said something about santa and he said "you know santa isn't real, right?" and i said yes, but then i went home and cried. But i'm over it, really.
28. Do you open a gift on Christmas Eve?
always
29. How do you decorate your Christmas Tree?
lights, ornaments, tinsel, the usual. Although we're gonna decorate our dorm tree with spongebob lights and condoms lol
30. Snow! Love it or Dread it?
i only love it if it cancels classes.
31. Can you ice skate?
no
32. Do you remember your favorite gift?
it was probably when i was in third grade. i really wanted a bike and my mom told me that i couldnt have it, but then i did.
33. What's the most important thing about the Holidays for you?
being home, seeing people, eating
34. What is your favorite Holiday Dessert?
chocolate truffle, hands down
35. What is your favorite holiday tradition?
we dont really have any...
36. What tops your tree?
we switch off between a star, a moose head, and an angel that my great grandmother made
37. Which do you prefer, giving or Receiving?
both
38. Candy Canes! Yuck or Yum!
yummy, but def only for xmas time.
39. If you could have one GIFT this year what would it be.
a new digital camera
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| this is what procrastination looks like... survey |
[19 Nov 2006|11:53pm] |
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Life:
.:. High School:
Danvers High
.:. Junior High:
Dunn Middle & Collins Middle School for 1/2 a year.
.:. Elementary:
Riverside & Thorpe for 3rd grade.
.:. Favorite Soda:
Soda makes me feel sick, but mountain dew if I have to pick.
.:. Favorite fruit:
I love fruit! I think bananas and pineapple are my favorites.
.:. Favorite weather:
warm with a breeze, or pouring rain if it's warm and I don't need to be anywhere. I <3 jumping in puddles.
Do You:
.:. Want more piercings:
I want a belly ring, but I also want to be skinny first.
.:. Want a tattoo:
I already have one
Last:
.:. Person talked to/texted on the phone?
My mom.
.:. Person IMed on-line?:
Lucia
.:. Blue or red?:
ummm i like them both!
.:. Spring or Fall?:
spring
Random:
.:. Do you speak a different language?:
not fluently
.:. How old do you act?:
it depends. I like to act like a little kid.
.:. Do you have any pets?:
A dog, a cat, and a sister. I miss them all :(
.:. Mood?:
Distracted & ADD
The 4 W's:
Whos in the room with you?:
nobody
What was the last thing you ate?:
a tofu turkey and cheese sandwich on wheat bread with mustard. mmm
What was the last thing you drank?:
water
What color pants are you wearing?:
pink with red hearts that say i love lucy
What is the closest item near you that is blue?:
my spongebob comforter!
What are you wearing on your feet?:
mismatching socks cuz all the matching ones are dirty
What instant messaging service do you use?:
gaim. It's pretty much the same as aim, but better
What do you wear more, jeans or shorts?
jeans.
Where is your mom?:
at home probably
Where do you sleep?:
in your mom's bed.
Where did you get the shirt you are wearing?
i stole it from brandon when we were going out
Which is Better With The Preferred Sex:
067. Cute or pretty:
i like cute girls, but i don't really know with guys
068. Lips or Eyes:
eyes
069. Hugs or Kisses:
both?
070. Short or Tall:
omg i love really tall boys!
071. Easygoing or serious:
easygoing, but can be serious if they need to be
072. Romantic or Spontaneous:
both, but if i had to choose i guess spontaneous, as long as he doesnt spontaneously sleep with my sister or something
073. Muscular or Skinny:
somewhere in between
074. Sensitive or Loud:
sensitive i guess
075. Hook-up or Relationship:
relationship.
076. Sweet or Caring:
both.
Have You Ever:
078. Kissed a Stranger:
haha yeah
079. Drank Bubbles?:
yes
080. Lost glasses/contacts:
i always lose sunglasses :-(
083. Got an X-ray and on what?:
yes. ankle, wrist, knee, teeth.
084. Broken Someone's Heart?:
of course
085. Had your heart broken?:
not really
087. Cried When Someone Died:
yes
088. Cried At School?:
yes
Do You Believe In:
089. God:
yes
090. Miracles:
kinda
091. Love At First Sight:
no, just attraction at first sight
092. Ghosts:
no
093. Aliens:
no
094. Magic:
no
095. Heaven:
not sure
096. Hell:
no
098. Kissing on The First Date:
depends on how the date went
099. Horoscopes:
no
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[21 Aug 2006|11:39am] |
I saw Sean Clarke last night at the movies!
My birthday is in 2 days! :D You all better be at my party.
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| Snakes on a plane |
[20 Aug 2006|11:37pm] |
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If you like B-movies you HAVE TO go see snakes on a plane. It was simultaneously the best and worst movie i have ever seen.
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| The Lake House |
[27 Jun 2006|02:43pm] |
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Eleni, Juju, her mom & I went to see the Lake House last night. I thought it was dumb.
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| bad idea |
[08 Jun 2006|12:26am] |
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I knew that seeing that movie was a bad idea. Now, as much as I don't want to, all i can do is think about him. I thought I didn't miss him, but tonight made me realize that I wasn't fooling anyone. I don't want to be upset. That's just annoying for everyone involved. I just really wish we went to see "RV" instead.
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[06 Jun 2006|04:05pm] |
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I don't know why I care so much, but what boggles my mind even more is why you don't care at all.
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[31 May 2006|01:45pm] |
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Brandon and I broke up.
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| Dear Drunk Driver, |
[26 May 2006|11:42pm] |
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Let's get something straight.
If you do not care about your own well being when you're driving, you don't have the right to be on the road. You don't have the right to put me, my sister, my friends, and everyone else I love at risk. If you were drunk at any point tonight you are not okay to drive. Period. You do not drive better stoned. Period. If you're so tired that you can't keep your eyes open or form sentences then you're not okay to drive.
Let me tell you a story (and I'll try to keep it brief). When my mom was about my age she went out and got drunk with her friends. Her best friend Jennifer decided that she was okay to drive. They crashed into a tree on the way home, killing Jennifer and leaving my mom permanently blind in one eye.
I hope that you don't have to die or kill one of your friends (or mine) before you figure out that you're not okay to drive.
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| God is a woman and She hates me. |
[01 May 2006|03:05pm] |
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I have my period for the days leading up to and during finals. That includes the time I need to study and write 2 papers. As if it wasn't gonna be hard enough.
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| Just one of those days. |
[26 Apr 2006|05:52pm] |
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Have you ever had one of those days when you honestly wished that someone would hit you by a car or you would suddenly come down with an accute case of mono so that you could be hospitalized or bed ridden and you wouldn't have to worry about being in 12 places at once for a couple months. Well, if you've had one of those days then you know how I felt today. If not, then consider yourself lucky (and you probably think I'm a bit unstable right now, but this is livejournal, so that's only to be expected.)
Well, that's why I love kids. They don't accept bullshit excuses like adults tend to. They don't understand "Sorry I slacked off, but I had 2 tests to study for and papers that I had to write." They don't care about your all-nighters or your other commitments. I wish that everyone could look at the world like this. It stressed me out at first to look at my cub scouts as just another commitment, but once I got to my meeting I realized that giving my kids 100% really made me so much happier. I couldnt just pout and cry like I had the rest of the day. They simply didn't care about my bad day and they shouldn't since it has nothing to do with them. All they care about is that I go there and entertain them. Selfish? Of course. Oh, to be a kid again.
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| Dr. Jekyll and Mr Hyde |
[01 Mar 2006|11:28pm] |
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Ok so I'm not sure how many of you have drank with me or seen me drunk, but today I thought of the perfect analogy for sober me vs. drunk me. It's definitely like the difference between Dr. Jekyll and Mr. Hyde. Technically the same person, but really completely different. I just had to write that down before it was out of my head because it really is my life.
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| Weird dreams |
[11 Feb 2006|12:44pm] |
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I don't know why i don't just delete this thing since i don't even write in it anymore.
Whatever, lately I've been having some really weird dreams. Last night's wasnt that bad in comparison, but i dreamt that i was on the gauntlet 2 and i became friends with kina and randy and kina was telling me about a crazy girl at widener that tried to friend her on facebook, but then we were actually friends so she told me that she would be my friend on facebook now so it was ok. And i was happy cuz everyone would be happy that i was friends with kina.
I think 2 things are evident here. 1) Way too much of my life is spent on the facebook. 2) I really need to make my audition video for the Real World so i can get it out of my head.
I dont know why i felt it necessary to share this particular bit of information after so many months, but whatever. Peace out
ps happy birthday keight :)
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| I'm an idiot. |
[02 Dec 2005|01:41pm] |
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So yesterday it was dark when I was walking home from theatre and I stepped in shit. When I got back to my room I did not take off my shoes and i was completely oblivious to this fact. After 5 mins or so my room began to reek of shit (no surprise there). The surprise is that I immediately started thinking "did I shit my pants?" I dont know why I thought this since i dont think ive shit my pants since i was 4ish. A normal thought would have been the obvious "Did I step in shit?" or even, "Did my room mate shit her pants?" But no, I was contemplating whether or not I was the culprit, and even more, if i could have possible done it subconsciously. It took me a good 3 minutes to realize that the smell was coming from my shoe.
That my friends, is why I am an idiot.
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| Your leadership style- Teaches you a lot about you and others |
[13 Sep 2005|07:43pm] |
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Read the following statements and figure out which ones best relate to your work style. Remember, this isn't your personality, but how you react in work situations. I did this last year with City Year and again at a meeting the other day with the Presidential Service Club. I think it's neat how people can be so easily categorized.
1) NORTH
Approaches to work/work style:
- assertive, active, decisive
- likes to determine the course of events and to be in control of professional relationships
- enjoys challenges presented by difficult situations and people
- thinks in terms of the "bottom line"
- quick to act or make decisions; expresses urgency for others to take action
- perserveres, not stopped by hearing "no", probes and presses to get at hidden resistances
- likes variety, novelty, new projects
- comfortable being "in front"
- values action-oriented phrases, "Do it now!", or "I'll do it", "What's the bottom line?"
2) SOUTH
Approaches to work/ work style:
- Understands how people need to receive information in order to act on it
- Integrates others' input when determining the direction of what's happening
- Value-driven regarding aspects of professional life
- Uses professional relationships to accomplish tasks, interaction is a primary way of getting things done
- Supportive of colleagues and peers
- Willing to trust others' statements at face value
- Feeling-based thoughts and actions; trusts own emotions and intuition; intuition regarded as "truth"
- Receptive to others' ideas, builds on others' ideas, team player, noncompetitive
- Able to focus on the present
- Values words like "right" and "fair"
(When it comes to work i have absolutely no south in me!)
3) EAST
Approaches to work/ work style:
- Visionary who sees the big picture
- Generative and creative thinker, able to think outside the box
- Very idea-oriented
- Makes decisions by looking towards the future (insight/imagination)
- Insight into mission and purpose
- Looks for overarching themes and ideas
- Adept at, and enjoys problem solving
- Likes to experiment and explore
- Appreciates a lot of information
- Values words like "option", "possibility", "imagine"
4) WEST
Approaches to work/ work style
- Understands what information is needed to make decisions
- Seen as practical, dependable and thorough in task situations
- Provides planning and resources, is helpful to others in these ways and comes through for the team
- Moves carefully and follows procedures and guidelines
- Uses data analysis and logic to make decisions
- Weighs all sides of an issue, balanced
- Introspective, self-analytical, critical thinker
- Skilled at finding fatal flaws in an idea or project
- Maximizes existing resources- gets the most out of what has been done in the past
- Values words like "objective" and "analysis"
(I am most definitely a west)
So now that you know what you are. Take a second to read what some of the symptoms of overuse of the different directions. I can assure you that if you had a direction that you identified with completely the next thing will hit home, too.
1) NORTH
Overuse (style taken to extreme)
- Can easily overlook process and comprehensive strategic planning when driven by need to act and to make decisions
- Can get defensive, argue, may attempt to "out expert" others
- Can lose patience, push for decisions too early, or avoid discussions to a significant extent
- Can be autocratic, want things done his/her way, has difficulty being a team member
- Sees things in terms of black and white, not much tolerance for ambiguity
- Gets compulsive, disregards practical issues
- Not heedful of others' feelings, may be perceived as cold
- Has trouble relinquishing control- finds it hard to delegate, thinks "If I want something done right, I have to do it myself!"
2) SOUTH
Overuse:
- Can lose focus on goals when believes that relationships or people's needs are being compromised
- Has difficulty refusing requests
- Internalizes difficulty and assumes blame
- Prone to disappointment when others see relationships as secondary to tasks
- Difficulty confronting or handling anger (own or others'); may be manipulated by emotions
- Can over-compromise in order to avoid conflict
- Immersed in the present; loses track of time; may not take action or see long-range view
- Can become too focused on the process at the expense of accomplishing goals
3) EAST
overuse:
- Can put too much emphasis on vision at the expense of action or details
- Can lose focus on tasks
- Poor follow-through on projects can develop a reputation for a lack of dependability and attention to detail
- Not time-bound, may lose track of time
- Tends to be highly enthusiastic early on, but then burns out over the long haul
- May lose interest in projects that do not have a comprehensive vision
- May become frustrated and overwhelmed when outcomes are not in concert with vision
4) WEST
overuse:
- Can be bogged down by information, continues doing analysis at the expense of moving forward
- Can become stubborn and entrenched in a position
- Can be indecisive, collect unnecessary data, become mired in details, "analysis paralysis"
- May appear cold, withdrawn, with respect to others' working styles
- Tendency to remain on the sidelines, watchful, observing
- Can become distanced from other people
- May be seen as insensitive to others' emotions
- May be resistant to change
(And anyone who's worked with me in the past knows that that describes me almost to a tee)
Well I hope you learned something about yourself or someone you work with.
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| My mom kicked me out of the house |
[01 Sep 2005|01:03pm] |
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My mom kicked me out of the house last night. I don't know how permanent this is. I could apologize, but I don't feel like I did anything wrong. All my life my mom has said she would choose her kids over a boyfriend if it came down to it, but now I know that she's nothing but a gold digger. She really is just like him and I can't feel sorry for telling her that. I know this doesnt make sense to anyone else, but whatever. The only part that you need to understand is that my mom is crazy. She kicked me out of the house and told me that she's not going to pay for college anymore. I don't need her. I've been telling her for months that I would help pay for it. She tells me I don't appreciate what she does for me but that's not true. I don't appreciate him. Why should I? Every now and then he decides to stop buying himself new cars and motercycles and whatnot to help pay for my computer. And at what cost? To constantly be told that I'm not wanted in my own house? To be woken up in the middle of the night hearing my mom crying and him telling her to get the fuck out? No thank you. Ill buy my own computer. You're right mom, I DONT appreciate that shit.
You know what I appreciate? The father who will give me $10 when he only has 20, who tells me he loves me every time he sees me and has never made me feel inadequate. A friend's mother who I have only seen once or twice this summer who will let me stay at her house even when my friend isn't here because she cares. THATS what I appreciate mother. Love isnt about money, when the hell are you going to figure that out???
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